Lexi,
I can see where you would feel scared, and how your spotting and wanting an answer from your Mom, would set off your grief again. Grief is such a messy--just never know when something is going to come up that will remind any of us of our deceased Moms. Have you had the courage to make a doctor's appointment. to check things out? I wish I had the medical knowledge to give you some ideas of what it could mean, but I don't. I hope and pray you will feel better soon. Prayers for peace, Jane - Oz