yes, yesterdays, i'm the same way - and i think that a lot of other people in therapy are too. for me, it's just too vulnerable. while i really enjoy making eye-contact with my therapist, the thought of saying something personal and having to actually "see" how she reacts is just too much. i'm usually too afraid that she's going to have some horrible reaction or make some face of disgust, and i'll see it.

not sure what to tell you to break the habit, but i did tell my therapist that i'd like to work on making more eye-contact so every now and then (especially if she's trying to make a point) she'll ask me to look at her. i think having instructions like that are really helpful. maybe you can ask your therapist for help with it too.