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Originally Posted by Tatyana2009
No. It is HIS job to show you over a long period of time how much substance there is to what he promises.
It is your job - not to be codependent! (which is speaking in this quote)
You are wrong here. He is in control. Abusive man are. I think it will be useful to read about abusive man. I know its a hard journey but its worth it, unless you want to stay with the abusive and be abused for the rest of your life until the day you die - which is a very gloomy outlook you would agree...
I am sorry I am harsh but reading your posts just made me want to send you some harsh reality to protect you.
Please stay safe. And look after yourself with love.
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Thanks for the reality check; I need it. I am not free mentally or emotionally from him. I think I love him, but I'm not even so sure about that, because often things he does make me question whether I even like him. But then I gloss it over and make excuses for him. I would go into specifics but realize it's stupid because it's not even about him anymore; it's about me. Why can't I let go? But believe me I'm looking for answers. In the meantime I'm not making any life-changing decisions. All I want is to be a good person and have a little happiness for a change without fearing the rug being pulled out again. Today I'm happy to a degree. I can even say I don't mind being without him. Aloneness isn't so bad after all, but during quiet moments of the day or night my mind and heart drifts back to him like a moth to a flame. Thanks again. I appreciate your words.