Today has been a horrible day, depression wise. Nothing out of the ordinary really. It just... is, yah know?

Anyway, I was invited to this party for a group at my school called Lifesavers that I'm supposedly a part of. I got to thinking, why bother? Why bother when it's just an elitist program that after the retreat, the members only care about those who they think are elite and I'm not one of them?

The thing is, the only person who actually has even cared about me even just a fraction is the sponsor of it and I know that at the end of the year, he has to leave me. Why does all the few people who actually care about me have to leave me? Why does no one stay with me?

Because I could really use someone to care about me. I really do.