dear dsh74,
i am so sorry for all the things you are facing. life is very hard isn't it? personally, i am trying to learn how to "let go" of all the problems, the pains, the sadnesses, the depression, the financial worries, the illnesses and to turn them over to my "Higher Power" who will take care of me if i only let him.

i am finding that he was here all along, yet i ignored him. somehow i had to hold on to all those worries myself and was afraid to have that leap of faith and entrust him to help me.

now, finally, mostly (i am human, and fail!) i am letting him take charge. it is not to get "me" off the hook, but to learn to know his will for me. and also, in facing each obstacle as it comes up, even though, ohh i know this well, they can seem to never end and the will to continue gets really tested, that, in the end, he will give you the answers to your prayers and take away the suffering.

i am praying for you (i went thru a similar situation with this house, i am now protected legally, somehow the finances are there to deal with things, etc.) i also had to learn that things happen in "God's time, not ours" so i will also pray for you to know patience as well as His love. please don't ever give up.