Thank you all for your responses and support. Part of our problem is our core is in full denial of our child alters, and the eldest child IRL is coming up to the age of when our abuse began, setting off little dominoes inside. We have 2 child alters that I am aware of and also a 'group' of children called The Chorus who speak like a classroom of kids but not slow and singing-like with little kids at school - 'Goooodmooorning Mrsss Whateverrrr', you know how they are! The Chorus say single words quick, sharp & very loud, sometimes they give me a fright. The other energies don't do child orientated things, don't play with the kids or anything. There is a big block here, and I'm the only one who does. We are currently in the process of having another T visit us at home to help us with this. The kids have everything they need to let their imaginations run wild, a dad that loves to play, and a grandmother who has spent 25yrs as a childcare facilitator and is always down on their level, so they are certainly taken care of in that respect, just not with mum. Anyhooo, our host (not core) is quite antisocial at the moment and has been for a while as she deals with most of T work which is intense at the mo due to other every day life happenings (as if the past isn't enough, we have to deal with the present as well!!! Wouldn't it be nice if the merrygoround just stopped long enough for us to catch up??) so we have stopped going to parents group. I have to say though, the ladies at parents group are very special, and see that we are in some kind of distress and so keep in touch via txts (which host prefers). A couple of them even meet me and the kids at a park to just sit with me while they chitchat away, open invitation for me to join anytime. I love joining in! Anyhoo, the host, who wrote the original msg of this thread, is having a long overdue rest I guess. Thank you again for your support and replies, and I hope all is as well as it can be in your world.
Cheers, Ronnie
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