Thank you, Oceanwave. Yes, I was the one who had to cancel. I was workng with the small part of myself last night and I realized that the biggest part of the breakdown in trust was not about not seeing T, it was because three times in the time waiting for him, he compared my response to other clients.

That part of me really hurt thinking about this. My dad and mom used to punish my brothers by comparing them to me. "Your sister does THIS so why can't YOU??"
So him doing that really pushed my button.

I feel better this AM - calmer. At least now I know why it hurt so much.
And I can wait to talk about this with him Monday. No big deal now that I figured it out for myself. But there still is a disconnect there. I am sure it will grow back when I see him and tell him what I learned. I do tend to learn a lot from these types of things. I never realized this was one of the BIG triggers for me. So now I know. Tons of hugs!