Does anyone else have trouble with their life being all separated into parts?

i wish there were someone that understood. it's so hard to live this way and i don't have any support from anywhere. my family, my h doesn't understand, they think that i don't love them , my parts don't act the way i do .
H gets into arguement with my part and i don't agree with her either

why does this happen to me? why can't anyone understand and help me?

i wish my T could help me. i don't know what i could do to get better- so that i could agree with my parts and what they do and say.

everyone in my family misunderstands. i say 'it's not me , it's my part that said that"
but all they see is me.
Things are getting so bad. The more upset i am the worse it gets
i wish someone could help. i go to t every week and it doesn't make me any better able to be one with my parts.
Anyone have any experiences, ideas?
Thank you for listening,
kerria