Hello everyone,

I have been diagnosed with BPD, and have been in the hospital quite recently. My pdoc explained to me that I will ALWAYS have negative suicidal thoughts, always! Except...sometimes they will be in the front of my mind, sometimes they'll be in the back of my mind. And the more I entertain these thoughts, the more likely they'll come to the front of my mind. It's so very true, and it makes me so sad to know this.

So many hospitalizations, so many medication trials, ECT, everything...but the thoughts will always be there. I've been struggling lots, even after being released from the hospital. Every day I struggle with these negative thoughts.

How can I help myself? Does anybody have any advice?