ok, so my T called me this morning. I really didn't want to answer the phone, but then I did. It was good to talk to her. She told me that she called 3 times last night and it just kept ringing, didn't even go to my voicemail. I totally believe her, my phone did an automatic update last night and was acting really weird.

So, she said she's really sorry she wasn't able to connect with me last night. I didn't tell her about all the emotional stuff I've been going through, because that's not the kind of thing she really wants to talk about on the phone, unless it's a safety issue. It was just really good to know she is still out there and she still cares about me.

She said to call her again if I need to or want to. This was just bad timing in the form of a stressful week for me, knowing T is leaving adding to that, and then not being able to connect with her. I will allow that when I left her the message yesterday I told her that I was calling with a question about registering my kids for school, so if she was using her spare moments during the day to return calls she probably shuffled me to the end of the list and called people in crisis first. I understand that, and I'm okay with that. When I'm in crisis she can tell, and usually tries to call me back soonish. Usually.

So. I'm feeling a little better. I'm going to group tomorrow, and then I'll see T on Tuesday before she leaves. I'm trying not to be sad about her leaving. She'll still be available by phone in a limited capacity. I'll survive.