WePow, I'm sorry. This sounds like a hard and lonely headspace. I can relate to the rapid switching of I need you- I never needed you and I never will- oh my god I need you right now etc etc. It's exhausting. I hope you can get a bit of rest in your head.

I love bloom's throwing overboard vs. putting him in the corner comparison. The corner does sound like a better solution- telling him off while keeping him close

I hope you're ok.