((melissa.recovering))

I feel for you. I can honestly relate to what your doctor said to you, as well as your emotional reaction to those words.

I am honestly stuck in that state of mind as well. Some days are tougher than others. My T put it as: " I feel as though my life sucks, and is completely pointless, but there are little moments in which I don't feel the pain." There are moments in which I actually have pleasure. Focus on those good times. And when life becomes overwhelming again, remind myself of the pain-free and pleasurable times in life.

There are times in which the darkness becomes very overwhelming for me. Thankfully, I've written on both dark and lighter days ~ so I can refer back to them. It doesn't bring me out of my dark, depressing moods, but it give me a teeny bit of hope that the darkness will ease quickly.

I think that's what your doctor was trying to say to you. He/she wasn't saying that your life will always suck completely. Basically, the mood will generally be pretty low. There will be ups ~ and downs ~ but you will go back up again. Don't lose sight of the ups! Write them down. Harmless enjoyments that you have in life. Build that list of enjoyments slowly.

Gnetle hugs to you, melissa. Best wishes!