I hate to just sound like I'm just whining and complaining. However, it just feels like my life has gotten turned upside down. I don't know who I am anymore. Things that used to be so easy for me are now like running a marathon. I isolate myself. I don't eat much. It just seems like I am going to have everlasting sadness. I feel pretty worthless. I can intellectualize about how unrealistic some of my thoughts are. I've tried and tried to fight them with CBT. Sadly, meds haven't gotten my depression from a 2 to about a 4 with 1 being as down as possible and 10 just being filled with joy. My life is just passing me by. I got married and I was happier than ever. Then all kinds of things, beyond my wife's and my control, happened. I just feel defeated. I feel like I've been beaten down so many times by life. I just don't really care about anything anymore but my daughter. I feel guilty for being this way with a 3 year old daughter. The best way to describe how I feel is just really tired of life (but never suicidal). I don't feel like trying anymore. I wish my feelings would change when I do think more positive about things...