I Completely understand you! I've had ongoing depression for years. At times I struggle with the going on part, not in the ending life part, but the not giving a damn anymore part. What's the use? Hope is drained from you heart when you have depression. There's no easy fix. I've told my friend many times I'd rather have some physical problem instead of this.

I don't have a lot to offer right now as Im going through a rough time myself. Only that you are not alone in this feeling, thinking. I'm sorry you're going through such a difficult time, wish I could offer more. cG