I have a total of what I consider 2 semi-close friends. I think I have a total of 3 friends in all, really. Today one of my friends blew me off...she was supposed to come over today and I haven't heard from her since yesterday. This is the second time she's done this to me. Last time she wasn't feeling well, which is understandable, but this is a second time in a row. I'm not one who has too many friends and it's heartbreaking when they do this to me. I pour my heart and soul out to my friends and they say they're there for me, but are they really? Maybe I should just stick to being my own friend...I'm the only one that seems to be there for me, anyways.

I just hate it that I am so alone in this world. Everybody says how wonderful, caring, and likeable I am...so why do I have so many few friends? I just don't get it. The same thing as people always telling me how pretty and attractive I am...why don't I have people flocking for me, then? I really don't get that one.