I also have these types of memories. Where I have pictures of me smiling with friends and there supposed to be happy times and friends remember being there etc..But I don't remember??? Even if there is a picture of the event with them present? How we T and I can come up with that is for my situation the back ground behind everything else was that I was trying so hard to function in an awful situation that I dissociated all the time that even good times sometimes got erased as well? Things were so icky. So just like if your hmm let's see for illustrations sake your editing something and you accidentally erased something and saved it without proofing it first and saved it. You don't know that it was any other way? You just see it as the way you saved it your saved file? Much like our memory? So if someone say's hey remember this event and we did so and so ?? We have just blocked it out for whatever reason, not necessarily cuz it was a bad time with them? Does that make any sense? That's just how it works in my case or it's reasoned out for my instance....biggest safest hugs if okay
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the past is my future. the pain is my emotion that is my prison. what I feel is as confusing as to why I feel it?
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