i am sitting here and there is no one to talk to. i feel my husband doesnt want anything to do with me and he is just waiting until he doesnt feel guilty about divorcing me. i am bipolar and off my meds. my charity care at the hospital ended and i am waiting for a doctors app in Jan through insurance. i have a son and i feel his mom(me) cant be there for is every need. its so hard to play with him and interact and even talk to him. i am a stay at home mom. i find myself getting sucked into kid shows and dosing in and out of sleep. idk what to do. i have meds that i can take but they make me feel funny. when i was going to the hospital for my meds they made me feel like a guinea pig for all their new meds. i gained like 50lbs on the meds they gave me and got acne really bad. i just dont know where to turn i have no support no friends and it feels like my family is just falling apart. i dont know where to turn or what to do...