Ah.. well it's good you can see the little things. I'm sorry for your misery "in your head" and hope you will continue your therapy struggle. About the bigger items... which one (on your list) would give you most satisfaction if you accomplished it... and which one is the "easiest or quickest" to do? I would pick one of them, personally... and work on just one thing to get done... one area... truly, as we age, we realize life is passing us by.. and we want to BE someone (we often don't feel like we are) pick ONE... and go for it?