Just when I think everything is going well and I think I can move on and be myself with my friends...I am shot down! I had one of my friends over today and my bf had never met her...he's just heard about her. Well, we were talking and I said to my friend, who is a lesbian, that my pdoc was very good looking. Well, my bf flipped out that I said that and hasn't spoken to me since. To me it was just everyday conversation to my friend, but I guess to my bf it's like I'm cheating on him. He says he will try to calm down on freaking out about such things...that was two weeks ago...but now, I know he has not tried to do anything on his part...and I feel trapped again.

I am now wearing my pride necklace, which makes me feel good. My bf is laying on the couch giving me the silent treatment as we speak. I asked him earlier if he was mad at me...he said no. I then asked him if he was gonna talk to me...he said nothing. He just did this little laugh/grunt that he does when the answer is no, I'm not speaking to you.

I'm so sick of this crap! It's like every two weeks we are fighting over the same context...women. So what if I'm attracted to women...it's not like I'm gonna go out, cheat on him, and be with women. I'm with him, not them! I've chosen him! I really don't know what to do anymore...I can't afford to live on my own...and I really can't afford it this month since I'm only getting $200 this month...and the rent alone is $360! I don't know what I'm gonna do!