Sending you hugs. It sounds so distressing. I feel for what you are going through. Not having the right meds combo is a nightmare and having someone who is supposed to be your greatest support treat you like he did is terrible. I hope your doggie didn't get sick from those choc chips.

Take good care of yourself. I know it's hard, but this too will pass. I'm on a good meds combo finally, but it seemed like it would never happen in the 2+ years of trying and being severely depressed or out of control mixed. I wish for you and your kids all the best. Sounds like your husband needs to come to therapy with you. He seems like the type that would refuse to go, but something is keeping the both of you from effectively communicating. And that is very serious when you're so close to the edge. Call your doctor if your mood gets any worse. I hope the Lamictal helps.