Lexicon... I can relate to the part about having difficulty making friends. A few years ago, I moved from Philly to San Francisco, and was really surprised how hard it was to make new friendships. I am very open and friendly IRL, and I would do my best to extend invitations to people but nobody seemed to want to take me up on my offers.

A year later, our lease was up and we decided to try living somewhere else. We arrived in Portland, and were invited to a party our 2nd night in town. I started doing some volunteer work, and looked for activity partners (bike riding) on Craigslist.org, and within a year I realized that I had made more good friends than I had even in Philly, where I grew up.

If you're having a difficult time expanding your circle of friends, my guess is that you're not in the right place. I would encourage you to move around, explore a new part of this beautiful world, and see if you can find your "people". I found my "people" here, and I would never have known what I was missing if I didn't take a chance and branch out. Having only 2 close friends puts a LOT of pressure on those two, especially if you seem dependent upon them. I think the trick is to build more friendships so that all of your eggs are not in one basket.

Take care of yourself, Lexicon,
LMo