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I do have OCD, and a fear of germs especially toward bodily secretions. Could this have anything to do with it?
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Absolutely. I have issues with OCD and sexuality, although different from yours.
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I would ask if it is normal, but I don’t believe there is such a thing as normal. I’m asking if anyone has ever felt this way or met anyone like this.
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I don't consider lack of a sex drive normal. But yes, there are many people who have a lack of sex drive. It can be for many reasons, including physical, mental, emotional or a combination of those.
A lot of it is your attitude towards sex and what you were taught about sex growing up.
I love sexy men, and I love sex. However, some of the things I was taught causes me to distrust men in a lot of ways. I always doubt as to why they want sex from me--is it the "men only want one thing" belief, or does he really care about me? I love the subject of sex, and sex itself, despite the fact that I have pain with intercourse. Yet, I've not had sex in over six years, and my boyfriend has no interest in me. I want to be desired. I'm not against pornography, but there are certain things about it that put me off. I won't get into all that here.
I have a vibrator, and I don't use it a lot, because of the hassle of having to get it out, put the batteries in (I don't keep them in, to save battery energy), put a condom on (for cleanliness; it's not just OCD...it's recommended), put lube on, have my fun, and then I have to clean up. That means taking the condom off, washing the vibrator carefully and drying it, tossing the condom, removing the batteries and putting them away, putting the vibrator back in the box, and putting everything back where it was. Plus, after I've had my fun with it, I need to clean myself up, wiping off my own natural lubrication as well as the artificial lube. Then, I have to throw away those paper towels.
I would recommend you see a sex therapist, myself.