Ok... Have been off work on holiday for 2 weeks and I have had to take the week before my holiday started due to my Manager saying I was "unstable" which I wasn't we had an argument.

Anyways, I have had 3 weeks to deal with all these issues and remain "sane" but I am having major panic attacks and anxiety issues.

Sickness
Diahorrea
Sweaty hands
Stomach turns and knots
Thinking I am no good and infact my Manager is right I am "unstable"
Not wanting to go back to work on Monday

I took a major panic attack in the City Centre the other day where I had sever diahorrea which luckily I managed to the toilet- Sorry I know this is a lovely description.

I am worried about work and about what my Managers are gonna say and do when I do go in on Monday morning. I hate unpredictability I really do and I hate the fact that I have no control over this situation at work

I was talking to my Mum and I can pin point being like this CONSTANTLY through out my Childhood.

Even writing this is making me ill with worry.

What can I do?