Hi chiggins824..sorry things are so tough right not. First and most important, you are here on PC, which means you have support, you have friends, and you have people you can turn to who have suffered the way you are now.
I know it's hard to think logically when your mind is in a dark place, but I hope you can try; Here is what I would try to focus on:
1. Even if your feelings about you last doc are justified, the new one is someone else; try not to judge the new one based on how the old one behaved. Give them a chance to help you find a med balance and other resources that can help.
2. It could be that your symptoms are causing you to misinterpret your husband's intent. It could also be that your instincts are right; or it could be something else entirely. Thank him for whatever help he has given, reassure him that you love him, and ask him to be patient until you have your symptoms sorted out.
3. No one can meet all the needs of another person, even their own child. There will always be times when you are wholly there, and there will be times when you don't have a lot to give. If he is healthy, getting enough to eat, has a warm place to sleep and isn't in any physical danger, it's not perfect, but it's enough for the moment.

I hope that you will be strong until you get the help that you need. When you need support, advice, or just need to rant, come here - there will always be someone to give you a hug.