Hey there. You are not alone. I've been where you are now. I do not hesitate to get help...why? I let the medical experts determine how to treat my state of mind. There are good hospitals and bad ones. How's your insurance?

It really does sound like you are in what I call "the deep hole" emotionally. It's dark and cold and scarey down there isn't it? I'll be checking on this post.

I sure do hope that you get some help and fast.

Keep posting so we know you are okay.

Sending you cyber hugs!