Hi 11pm,

Yes, these times of "down" when usually so productive can be soul destroying. Where have I gone? What do I do? Why do I not "love" as I used to?....if you get my meaning.....

The thing is, or so I have observed in myself, is that I am still me but "less" of me in those times. I call it "existential angst" and this can definitely lead to anger, depression, futility and intense and unrelenting frustration.

You mentioned that you are an atheist, but without entering into a discussion on that topic, I wonder what kind of spirituality you do have in your life. I have found that ignoring my "spirit" or pretending it does not exist (being a scientist by nature) has led me to very dark places. I have ignored a vital part to me, my humanity, with dire consequences.

I could be way off the mark here and I deeply apologise if I am. I do not like to jump to conclusions. But what I do know, is that you are loved........

So, dear person, love thyself and all else will follow.

Take care,

Michah