I can relate too. I just had a second session and I like talking to her but don't want her or my insurance to see me as crazy. I feel depressed in a ways and anxious in a ways. Take it slow. As you build a relationship, you will be able to open up more. As for the I can seem so normal, I can appear normal too. My sister who is closest to me didn't believe me because I don't cry around her. I seem to enjoy people and so I am kind of happy then. When I am alone, I find things to worry about and start crying. The therapist is calling it just an adjustment disorder which makes no sense to me. What would the stressor that I would be "adjusting" to? I just think it is connected with the past theory of Dysthmic Disorder and the idea that a teacher called it a mental disorder. Some how that really hurt my feelings some.