Me and my guy have been together for 3 years and as of today be engaged for 1 month. He is a great guy and totally worships me but is a total "closet" porn freak. He thinks I have no idea what he does at night online but I do, and all I have to do is check the history report on the computer. I sometimes feel bad about checking up on him but it's not like it is some hidden section with a password or something it's right there on the desktop. We were talking the other night about different types of addictions and somewhere in the conversation going to porn websites came up and he said that he has no need at all to do that. HE LIED RIGHT TO MY FACE!! If I did'nt know the real truth I would have belived him cause he said it very convincingly. Now how do I know what to belive and what not to belive? I completly understand why guys go to these places and I understand that there is no emotion behind it and just because he does it does'nt mean that he loves me any less, but what hurts me the most is that he is very well aware about how I feel about these sites and about the men who visit them. Yet he still goes and I don't think he feels guilty one bit if I was doing something behind his back that I knew would hurt him if he knew I would'nt do it. I have told him before that if he ever went to these sites and I found out I would feel like less of a person and be so hurt and not to mention discusted, yet he still continues to go! Sometimes if I come home after he has been home for a while and he starts trying to put me in the mood I cop this attitude and can hardly even let him touch me then he gets mad cause he thinks I am just being mean but it is really cause I am so hurt by what he is doing