Oh my word this is a hard one to respond to! We all believe individually that we have experienced the ultimate hardship or sufferring. Because over that period of time and in our heads we have! Then I read a story like yours and I realise that there are others out there so much stronger than I am!

I am not even going to try give advice hun because you already seem to possess some inner strength that keeps you going or why else would you be here seeking that confirmation you deserve!

Some days will be tough as hell and you might not see the point but then there are those days that are just glorious!! It is not big days....just the little things that make it so beautiful....

for example....for me...

i drive the same road into work everyday...but sometimes the sun comes up at just the right moment and catches the fields next to the road at just the right angle and it takes my breath away.!! or just the smile I give to a stranger on the road and the smile I get back...

I have learned to look for the really little things in life! Think of it as a piggy-bank........

save all the cents/pennies (depending on your country) just keep putting away the small change because eventually you will have a real value of memories!

Tc
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