Reading your post, I didn't know whether to feel more mad or sad. The first thought to cross my mind was "How dare they!?" I can't understand the savage behavior that some of my fellow men succumb to, and frankly I don't want to.

I'm very sorry those things happened to you, and hope you have gained enough perspective over time to truly realize none of this was your fault (I know that many survivors struggle with a totally undeserved burden of guilt and shame).

You did a good thing coming to PC. It is a very supportive and understanding community. I wish you all the best with what you are still facing.