some whining is quite allowed! I think what we do.. is try harder when we know we are really low? I know when I am where I am, that I work harder on my makeup so it's less obvious how depressed I am. You must be very good at covering your feelings.... I'm sorry your mother's note of encouragement didn't make it through to you .. in your depression. How ironic, isn't it? When we need support the most, we can't seem to accept it... a cognitive distortion...

I hope your T figures out that you have a less severe problem and can help fix it! But then.. sigh... Having a mental disorder only means that your mental processes are "disordered" right then... sometimes a label is a good thing... gives you a foundation to work from? TC