That's great that you can talk yourself out of it.........keep doing so, it may be hard but you are obviously doing something right and you know that you don't want to your thoughts are just getting in the way. Continue to stay strong
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Everything's Okay In The End, If It's Not Okay It's Not The End!
It's Hard to wait around for something that you know may not happen but its even harder to give up when you know its everything you ever wanted