Suga... it might be the thing. Bipolars get often scared of "OMG, I feel happy it means I am going manic and I need to stop it". I don't have any advice for what to do at the moment...but maybe for the future you could work in becoming more comfortable in wider range of emotions. There was a good article on this on Tom Wooton's blog (http://blogs.psychcentral.com/bipola...-with-bipolar/)