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Originally Posted by Yesterdays
And I don't even know why. But I hate myself. Beyond hate. I hate myself more than anyone else in the world. I am my worst enemy. I told my T that I don't deserve help, that I just deserve to live in misery. And it's true. I'm a terrible person.
I don't know why I'm posting this here... maybe because it's one of the symptoms of BPD... but I just want to know someone can relate. I hate my constant changing moods, my need to control everything in anyway that I can. I hate every fiber of my being.
I don't know what's wrong with me....  |
I am sorry this feeling is engulfing you....I don't have many words, but the wisdom that so many have already shared is beyond great...I just wanted to add I also feel this way to atm...And what's already said is this can go from one extreme to the other...Keep posting here. You can and will find great support. Sometimes just letting your feelings be known is great relief in itself...greatest of all hugs if safe...Take care
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the past is my future. the pain is my emotion that is my prison. what I feel is as confusing as to why I feel it?
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