I used to have sex but didn't really enjoy it. It was like ok lets get this over with so we can go do something else. I think mine comes from my upbringing that sex is dirty. My boyfriend now is perfect because he's still a virgin and wants to stay that way til marriage. I do worry about after we are married because what if I still think sex is icky and don't want to do it. I also think some of my ickiness is because of the partners I've had in the past. They weren't that great and I don't know if they were awesome and I just didn't enjoy it or what but I don't have any desire for sex.

Jbug