Hello lost and thank you for posting here. It is a first step toward feeling better.

If you are suffering depression or bipolar as a medical condition there are ways to help feel better. And if it is medical in nature than it will likely not clear up on its own. This is the best reason to see a doctor or therapist again to find out what it going on and get help towards feeling better.

I would definitely give the therapist another try. A therapist is a very "personal" thing, you have to trust him/her even more than a medical doctor so that you can speak openly, and both their "manner" and treatment style have to match your personality in order for it to be helpful and productive. If you feel you aren't getting help from the therapist you should try to find a different one, and keep trying until you find one that you "click" with.

Clinical depression and bipolar disorder seem to be genetically based illnesses that tend to run in families. If your sister is bipolar then that is a good reason to get checked yourself for bipolar or depression. As I said before, if there is a medical problem at the root of this, medical treatment will be necessary to get help, and there is no reason to deny yourself the help that is available.

In the meantime please keep posting here! We understand the things that other people can't or won't understand, so this is a safe place to talk about these fears and feelings and find people with similar stories and support rather than than getting bad advice or denial from people who know nothing about these problems. Hopefully we can help you figure out what you need to do to get better and give you the confidence and hope to take the steps you need to work toward wellness.

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-- Dave
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