I don't know where to go for help. -.-; I'm 16 years old, I'll be 17 in January.
It seems like my fear of things are growing.
I did some search, thinking I was 'paranoid', but nothing actually seemed to fit me.
I've got some stuff to admit. -.- I wouldn't say this stuff if I didn't hope I could find help. Someone please please help.
I can't, to start with, ever watch scary movies. I cover my eyes the entire time. I'm scared of it making me more afraid then I already am. I get scared by just the sounds, though, and they haunt me for ages.. jeez..
Basically, I can't be alone anywhere. Whenever I'm alone, even if someone is right in the next room asleep, I'm very very scared. I won't leave the room, I'll sit very still and try to distract myself with TV.. but every little noise makes me tense up.
I can't sleep with all the lights off, sometimes it takes me hours to fall asleep at all.
I can't even take showers without being scared. I constantly peek around the curtains to check for things.
I'm not even really scared.. of burglars and such.. well, that scares me too, but I always think.. (this is so embarassing) ghosts are in my house.
I have horrible nightmares, very often, very vivid about such supernatural things. Always very bloody, to be a small bit more specific.
I looked through phobias, and I wouldn't know what to call it... even when I insist to myself that ghost aren't real, I'm still scared of.. something... er, every noise makes me think someone is there..
It's all really confusing, and being a 16 year old with no job.. well, I'd be interested to see a psychiatrist, but I just can't afford anything like that. If I could even know this was a common problem, or if it was a medical condition, or anything...
Help?
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