Dreamer, I haven't read too many of your posts so I'm not sure what you are suffering with. Must be depression since your post is in the Depression category.
If that's so, it's the chemical imbalance in your brain. It's not YOU. I know too well the lack of motivation that goes along with depression, but if you don't think about it too much, (that's what gets you in worse trouble) get up, turn on the radio with a station that plays upbeat music or play some of your own music that is upbeat. Music is one of the best remedies, in my opinion. If you get a thought about wanting to do something, then do it!

... or at least a scaled down version if the idea is too much like you thought of it. Get out for a walk. The exercise gets the endorphins going. If nothing else, a lung full of fresh air will help.
You're not alone. We all know what you're going through. Keep posting. If you can't manage anything right now, we'll encourage you and support you.
Now go... get going...

"For unto us a Son is given..."
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Psalm 119:105 Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.