yes! i agree! i talk to my p-doc and it gets very hard for me becasue my hole life has been turmoil and i am just tired...i'm tired of not for once catching a break and knowing happiness....and i know i can love and people love me i just don't feel it. nothing holds that ultimate enjoyment sure i can be happy...am i really happy...no! but my response says i should. oh yeah a surprise for me look at my face yeahhhhhh......!! i'm tired of never being able to be a child and be care free i'm tired of always having the responsibility and burdens to bear to help others cope and i can't help myself...i'm tired of not showing my true feelings because if i did everyone would say i was unemotionable and have no soul (yes have been told this many a times as a child and teenage years) it's called being numb so you can survive from day to day...just plain tired and i could go on. i was dealt a bad hand and i just have to learn how to use what i got and go on. I UNDERSTAND