This is nice when it happens and I'm glad you feel open to more of it. For now, can you trust that this is part of the process? I think this is absolutely a result of your hard work! You made this happen because it is what you want. You are letting her see more of you, of your perceptions of yourself. This is a lot of progress, don't you think? Maybe your mind is feeling relaxed for now, knowing your son is coming home and is safe.