>>i don't know if it is me, or that everyone in my famly seems to be angry with me.

If you are suffering depression, always remember that your perceptions of things and people around you are filtered through the darkness of depression. There is a good likelyhood that it is you. Don't let the depression cut you off from the people who love you and want to help.

Is there any way anyone can help you with your meds? That is such a bad position to be in, my heart really goes out to you. Also talk to your doctor to see if he has any recommendations. The drug companies supply doctors with free samples to give out to patients so he may be able to give you some if you are lucky. I also think it is important to let him know that you can't take your meds because you can't afford them. He cannot treat you properly if he doesn't know the whole truth as to what is going on.

I feel so bad about all the stories with what people loose because our society can't really provide the help that people really need. I am likely going to be in the same boat, I am OK now but I have been out of work for 3 months now and I am quickly running out of money. I have absolutely no family to rely on for financial help, only family is my dad who is a huge financial burden on me and a toxic relationship to begin with.

Good luck soscared I hope you can find a solution to your immediate problems, some relief from the depression over time, and can be well on your way toward a better happier life. In the meantime keep posting here, people can give advice or just lend an understanding ear to listen. That in itself can be a huge help.

-- The world is what we make of it --
-- Dave
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