Hi there. I've booked a visit with my family GP today because I am having trouble coping with everything at home and generally motivating myself full stop. I was diagnosed with depression 3 years ago and had a year on citalopram, then went off it and then back on it again 6 months later. The last time I went on citalopram, it made me feel worse before I felt better.

Its different this time though, I have really bad days where someone will look at me the wrong way and I'll snap at them and burst into tears, but I'll have good days where I feel almost normal until someone argues with me!. I have a very argumentative 12 year old who is just revving up to be a typical teenager who I really cant cope with. I'm hopeless at saying no and feel guilty for being a really bad parent. She has also been suffering from a constant illness for 6 months with joint pains, fatigue and low grade fevers. No diagnosis yet and we are just managing her pain at home, which really, really sucks!!! I just do not know how to deal with a stroppy teenager who yells at me all the time when I feel like I cant cope myself. To add to the mix hubby has to go back to the UK after christmas to visit his sick mother, which is really stressful for him and I dont think I'm helping either!

I dont have the emotional strength to cope with all this, but I dont know if this means I'm depressed.

The other thing is that the last time I went to him with depression he wasnt very easy to talk to, even though he's my family doctor, or maybe thats why? Maybe I'd find someone I dont know easier to talk to.

Thanks
Sarah