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Originally Posted by WePow
bpd mess, I will never find that T because this is it. I will never again expose myself to this type of anguish. Never. I can't do it. I thought that it was safe to do with the right one - with someone who I felt I could trust. Not just a T.
I can't now... I just can't do that ever again. Not to this level.
I WANT to never ever see him again. But dang it - I put in a lot of effort into having him SEE who I am. He knows ME. So even if I get hurt by him, I still need him to help me make it. Maybe it can only be face to face. And maybe my path will just be harder. But I have to do what I need to do.
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((((wepow))))
i know this is sooooo hard. i won't ever see anyone else either. i think my t is trying to get me to share more in session and is working toward not having as much interaction through email because of that. she's fine with me sending it, but i think she's going to cut back on replying anything more than "good writing, print it and bring it in". she just said she cut me off the wrong way by not warning me and moving too quickly for someone with trust issues. i want the rules and i don't want them to change. i'm told that's not realistic in real life.