Thank you for responding, will reply in proper when I'm next able. Just wanted to add, I do suffer with depression. Also some mild aspergers. Just briefly on the death subject, its a fear that seems to effect me regardless of my age. I guess that its, that its going to get me no matter what. I don't know. Also it could be true, that the death thing stems from other things. I just don't know. Just wanted to add those details before I rest.