So yeah... I really don't know how I feel right now. I had a hell of a time over the weekend fighting urges and being thoroughly ticked off because of my grandparents. Also I have a doctors appointment that I'm anxious about. I could find out anything from having a thyroid issue to cancer... Or nothing.

I... Think I should feel relieved to be home or something, I might be. I'm not as mad anymore like I was earlier today. I know I'm still frustrated and I have plans to disown my grandparents because no one should be treated the way that they treat people. It's not even that they do too much either, but all of the grandkids are upset, all of the time. So something isn't right, we're not selfish, spoiled brats. We honestly care about our grandparents, but we want absolutely nothing to do with them.

...Am I feeling anything, and how do I find out if I am..? Without breaking my 5 month free streak.