I am having a very rough time this year.....looking back at what happened last year between now & when my Mother died in January & being in the medical hospital myself until mid February due to the trauma I had gone through because of my Mother, I am having horrible flashbacks, nightmares, & when I am not forcing myself to be with my horses, depression has set in pretty hard right now.

I had been told that the first year is the hardest.....it wasn't that way when my father died, but I hadn't gone through a trauma when he died like happened with my Mother. I am forcing myself to be with my horses & be very busy with them.....the only relief I get.

My own home life is non-existant since I am in the process of getting the divorce going. So as long as I don't allow my mind to take over....I am surviving.....but even the nausea & weight loss is happening again this year.

Debbie