I just am feeling a lot of different things right now and am consistently wishing for someone in my life that feels the same way, or has felt that way before so that there could be one person, just one singular person in my life that doesn't think I'm insane, but that gets it and just knows. Especially someone who's actually my age (22, in case you wondered.) I don't know which way is up right now and I feel like I need to go running until my lungs burn and I can barely breathe. I want to paint and draw and write and run and paint my nails and cry and sleep and talk. I'm depressed but I'm hyper and I don't know how to calm down. I don't know what to do. My sweater is inside out and my foot is asleep and I just want someone to understand where I'm at and help me to figure out where I'm going. Maybe this isn't even the right place for this, and if it isn't, I apologize. I'm just mixed up and I need to vent out some of this excess energy and emotion. I will probably regret this word vomit later, but right now it's what I need to do.

-Karen.