Why is it people don't understand S.I. its not for attention; irriated at my mother. She says talk to me tell me when you have urges and the first time I try to tell her she flys off the handle. Like I don't have to tell her anything I am not a child I am 21 yrs old, but her being concerned I thought I would give her a chance. Are people afraid of it or don't know what to make of it. My mother said its just hard for her to accept, but thats the thing I am not saying accept it I am not saying it is okay for me to do this. All I want her to do is listen, why is it so hard for people to listen. I know she means well, but saying things like "its a cop out" and blah blah really hurts. Honestly who wants to keep doing this, its hard to stop. Trying and keep failing ugh. I just wish to be understood. And she wonders why I don't open up to her or to anybody in that matter. She can't understand this, but she can understand my struggle with e.d. what the hell is the difference both are still self destructive and hard to break free from. ugh I just need a hug. Irriated frusturated upset sad too many emotions to count