(((((Chicken wing))))) It isn't easy to have T running all over the place that way.
My T told me last month that next year he will be gone for several weeks with his son out in the wilderness for survival stuff. It can be very hard when T is "out in the world" rather than all nice and safe in that nice safe office they make for us!

The reality though is that things can also happen in the office. ((NOT to get your mind going there!)) But any office - or on the way to the office - or in a grocery store - or in a parking lot. The reality is that surviving life is not always easy and there is danger. But we manage the dangers and move forward. And we grieve when those we love are harmed.

Just allow yourself to feel what you feel. But remember that life has to be lived.