I am going nuts.

I don't know how to solve this.

I am living somewhere I hate.

I was sick for 9 mo 2002-2003.

Abusive relationship for 9 mo 8 months after that.

I am scared, alone, i have no support system, no back up plans, no idea where to head from here, recovering from ptsd, miserable.

i managed to finish this paper.

but i wake up every day in utter fear. nightmare. when are we going to move...when will i get some relief from living here.

i need to move. i don't know where to. i don't know if i can do it alone after everything i have been through.

i am drowning. that;s how it feels....lost.